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Setting Boundaries

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This year is about setting boundaries and preserving my self esteem. No more worrying about what others think or say about me. Or how many people I alienate. Or how much my friend circle shrink. Its all about self preservation and uplifting self esteem. I have tried living by what others expect me to be, say and behave.  It served them, but not me. I felt trampled and taken advantage of and my self esteem, dignity and finances torn to shreds. So this year is going to be about recovering all of the above in the way I know best. I have never understood why we - girl children of the 60's and 70's have brought up to think this is a Man's World and why we need to "seen" and "not heard".  I know, enough has been said and done about this to have now come to 2023 with Women making the difference and being the cherry of the crop.  Not hashing this anymore.   Its about setting MY boundaries.  Saying NO, when I want to say "NO" and not going out of my way...

Wednesday Woes

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  Today feels all Upside Down. My glasses are foggy and my phone doesn't seem to work.  I know that the solutions are simple enough.  But I don't want to deal with them now.  I would like someone else to solve them for me.  I am the person, who solves problems and finds solutions for others, and now, I do not want to solve my own problems.  I really would like someone else to do what I normally do for others. Its sunny bright and beautiful in Covid-Free Auckland today.  But I don't feel bright, nor sunny nor beautiful. The bottom line is that regardless of studying the Gita and knowing theoretically that, everything is transient and it will pass and nothing that is happening NOW really matters, if we do not react to it, I still have not learned how to NOT feel. I feel, therefore I am. When I was at the salon getting my hair coloured, the stylist casually asked me, how I was.  I said that I was tired as I was moving house.  And just as casuall...